I spent the weekend and Monday and Tuesday at Best Friend's, dogsitting. It was lousy: I never left, I was constantly stressed and I was unhappy with myself pretty much from start to finish. I didn't even sleep well. I watched a lot of TV I had wanted to, but that's a thin pleasure that dissipates after seconds.
I'll try to write more about it later. The end rule is: fear only begets more fear; and yet I can't shake it.